This is a happy fear

Last night it was returning to the hardest classes after a long brake (a month or so). I was happy to go back but I felt that I'm shaking from fear like I didn't for a while. I didn't think it could also be very painful. On my way to class - still near home someone got into me with his bicycle. It was already dark, he didn't have any light and I tried to cross a road. I didn't see him and till he saw me - he couldn't stop the bike in time. Bicycle handlebars right into my waist. He still ran after me for a while to ask me over and over if I'm ok. I said that I am, but it was very painful. I still didn't think it's a good reason to miss another class. I got to the studio, went to change and got back to sit and look and the fandango of this medium level class. The other one who always comes got there as well. I didn't see her before that evening and I didn't pay attention that I sat near her stuff. We started to talk quietly. I knew that she was sick for a while, so asked her if she feel better. She said she does, but I don't look very well. I told her that it because of the bike I got into my waist. I tried to tell her about the night before, but it probably wasn't quiet enough. Neta signed to be quiet. When our class has started - Neta apologized that she doesn't well. She probably start to feel the virus that her daughters have. I said that I'm in pain as well. She thought I'm sick too. I told about the accident I had on the way. Neta said that the sisters promised to come this time. We started without them the warming. It was hard for me to move because of the pain. In some points - curving the body felt like hell. It didn't leave me before the end of class. We started to remember the steps. One markeje (one part which made of few steps and sign the beat while the singer sings) I made fine most of time, but every time we made it - we made it more than once a time. Every time Neta said that I start fine but in the second time I'm getting slower when I am not suppose to. Doing it again and again just because I'm getting slower in the second time. I asked to repeat other parts because I didn't remember. Now we through to this. It was pretty funny. I was sure that I have a big black hole in my memory in this part. Neta has started, the other one and me made it after her. Then they stopped and I made another little part which ended it. They didn't remember it, but I did although I was the one who wasn't sure in her memory. Neta said something about oh, yeah, it was there. Then one of the sisters from Haifa got in - the elder one. Neta asked her where is her sister. The girl said that her sister won't come, she will tell her later in the end of class. In this part I took out my camera for watching videos I took in the last classes for remember few more parts. The other one who always comes was sure that we made some classes without her. No, we didn't and we all didn't really remember, and the one from Haifa didn't know the parts that I took it videos. We worked on it on and on. It wasn't perfect, but if we think of two of us didn't do this part for along time and the third one didn't do it at all - at least this year - it wasn't too bad. It was more fear that stopped us from time to time that maybe we don't do it good enough. Some of the time we tried it on the beat of solea with a solea music. Ok, and dancing. Neta asked who's first. The other one who always comes said that she prefer NOT to be now. So - it was me. I had my guajira. I had to remind again how do I start it. I said that the entrence is libre (no "strong" beat and give me to start it in my beat). Palmas has started, my pain was to hard for giving attention. Then Neta said that oh, it suppose to be libre. The palmas has stopped. I didn't do it perfect and started to make few little fixing while dancing. Near the end - I stopped. I didn't remember how to continue and I don't have a video of all. Neta remind me, I made it, but needed to do it again. Neta said that I made it too small. I made it again. Neta said that I still do it too small and made this part with me. I didn't do the last part that in the videos, but it will be needed to see how to make it together. Then it was the turn of the other one. She did her solea, but unlike me - it was harder for her in the start. She did her entrence over and over again. Then the girl from Haifa. She still not sure what to do and how. She still thinks if it will be a solea or an alegria. She probably will do a solea. She still had only an idea for an entrence and it still in a work. Then a conversation. The other one who always comes made sure that I have a plce to sit next to them. Neta said that she doesn't know what to do. She really wants to give this class cause it's an important one, but it's a too small class and she was sure that we will be 4 girls. This class could survive only if we really want it and we'll make it shorter in the same price. It has started as a two hours class for giving a time to each. Still - it almost a private class now, so if we'll do it for an hour and a half each time instead it will be fine. Still - she won't lose money from it and won't earn. Three of us said that this class is important for us and we really want it although it's hard for us. The one from Haifa said that her sister wants to come as well, but her other studies won't let her anymore this year. So - agreed that this class survive. Three of us come for an hour and a half and fell responsible for the others - if someone can't come she must say it before. Yeah, it is a hard one and I'm still afraid from it, but it made me a big relief that this class will go one till end of year. The pains has started to over at midnight after I took a pill against the pain. Still felt my body in un-natural curves