Many dramas for one night (and a happy end)

OK, I have some reasons why did it take me so long to tell what happened. First of all - again not enough sleeping. I've been told I shouldn't go this way to class, but hey! Last month I didn't have much of it because of holidays, and sleeping hours are not a reason to miss class. I got a ride to the studio, but came too late. I came too much on time. Outside the girls from the same class. Some said "hi". Ilan was there out near the door while he made a practice. I told him this time that brake or not - it's fine to say "hello". He did. 

The little girls with a friend and a mother came. The class before ended while I was still changing. The cigarette brakes that Mijal takes between classes can help me when a thing like this happen, still I hate to come this way. I was too much in a rush. Inside the dragon tattoo girl started talking with me. This time she also came not too healthy - something at her back. She asked me about one of the parts. I said that I don't really remember. Only after she started to practice it with Ilan and the looking girl I noticed it's one of the parts at the siguiryia that I know well now. I made a try to practice with them. Ilan left alone while the girls went to practice with another girl. I wasn't sure if to practice or trying to say one thing to Ilan. At the end I told him that I know that he doesn't wanna talk with me, but he likes my photo... He said it's a good one. I told him that he should go back to the jeans. I'm not sure if he understood that I meant for last night and he doesn't know for sure my opinion on men who dance flamenco in jeans. Still he smiled and got back to practice for a moment. 

The class has started. The guitar player made a siguiryia. We made hands' warming. Those things I can do half sleeping. Not only that - I really start to understand what's going on at this part, no matter this studio is still new to me. 

We moved to legs' warming. Pretty fast it became the drills over the beat of siguiryia. At some steps I finally start to remember, some became easy for me, but I still need someone to look at. This time it was the happy one who almost ran over me to the wall. Sometimes I wonder how does it always happen to me. In her case.... She just too much around herself. After a while Mijal stopped for a moment. She looked at us. She said that once only me and the happy one will do a part that we made a practice on till this moment. Cool, that's one of the easier part for me. The happy one didn't trust me and asked another one to join. We made it with the first girl who noticed me at this studio. We made only few steps. Although I know this part - it didn't work out for me. I thought at the start that Mijal stop us because of me. No, she stopped us cause the third girl got nervous and made it less good than before. Mijal told that girl that no one judge her and we all love her, she should do it with grace like she did earlier. Three of us made it good at the second chance. After us were more trios and two groups of four that made the same thing. Accept one girl who almost gave up in the middle - all made it well. 

We went on and made some more parts we worked on that fit siguiryia. Getting better for me all the time, although sometimes it looks like I can;t hold on body balance till the right moment and do the next step a second before time. 

We danced all the siguiryia. I still don't remember all, but the wholes in my memory become smaller with time. 

We made a practice on some certain parts of the siguiryia. Mijal asked Ilan, the little girls and another girl to come next to her. After all came closer she said it's because the steps we work on are still hard for them, so she want them to see. After a while Mijal told about something that happened to her at Seville years ago because of something that one of the little girls made. When we got back to practice on another part Mijal started to correct one of the girls. She said that it's better to do all well, but perfect is boring. Of course it's better all will be on the right place, but if something doesn't work out it's better to keep on the movement and the dancing look. Fine, if we do some mistakes it can happen, but go on with it. We worked over and over on this part. I start to know this part well, but after this speech it worked out a little less. When Mijal looked at me I made some big mistakes. Still it's mostly working on parts of body which comes easier for me in flamenco and I already started to learn how to go on with mistakes. So, instead of getting into stress I smiled and went on. She smiled to me. A moment after we went on. Mijal asked us to start dancing the siguiryia again from the start. Because I was THAT tired it took me a little while to notice that all the rest are getting ready for it. I guess that I'm getting better. Although I still don't do it perfect, although there are still few steps that I don't remember well, although I was sleepy - I made it and it felt easier. 

The guitar player went away. We had few more minutes. Mijal let us ask her about the steps. We made it more clear and made a practice through what some asked. 

Class was over. Mijal was talking with Ilan outside near the door when I went. On the way I said goodbye. Mijal answered, Ilan mostly smiled. Again I got mad. He said he answered me. I said something about embargo that he chose to do. 

Later on after I got back home and went out with my dog for a walk - Ilan wanted to talk with me. He was still on the way home. He stayed there a bit more. Now he wanted to talk for making things more clear for both of us. So, looks like it wasn't only me who didn't like what happened at last few days. The big fight has finished now cause by this talk we know that this friendship is too important for both of us for going on this way. Yep, happy end for the fight - a good friend asked to come back into my open arms