Last farruca to this year

Too many things tonight. I guess that I was THAT tense last time from end of year show till I couldn't any longer with it. This is the last week for this year and show this Friday. I came this time when I wasn't sure how am I gonna make it. I felt sick. And I came walking all the way in the heat, so I didn't really need a warming. This time I heard from outside the music different. Only when I got in I understood why. Finally the singer who will perform with us came. I have some conclusion: I don't like the way he looks (NOT that it's important, but...), he isn't bad but ain't the best. I still think that Shuky "takes him by walking". Shuky who was the first choice have much better voice and I think he has much more talent. I went out to change. I had my dad's shirt and already tights made for dance. I know that people won't see it under the pants, but I should get used to it. In the show itself I will have to dance with bata with tights under and in the show itself - I'm not sure how long will it take me to do this change as well. When I got back to the studio - the fat woman took my place on the bench, so I needed to wear my dance shoes standing. She won't move... I was taken by surprise that no one said anything about the shirt, mostly after last week. And this time - only three of us were wearing white shirt. One was the fat woman (with all fa outside. repulsive). Both sir conditioner were working, so better for me. This time I had the chance to feel again how does it's different for the dance when you wear some different things. In this men's shirt it felt cooler and I was hardly sweating. Much easier this way. And a lot of work. Making the end more perfect. We were working mostly on the end - the tango part of the farruca. I had few mistakes, but some little ones and I moved on. Amazing how does the the singer affects the "ballerina". She finally gave me my space and I could see that she's looking if I have it. And dancing all. In this part or so I noticed that I don't feel sick any more and I'm relax. I hope to be relaxed like this in the show (although it's hard for me to believe). When we hardly started to practice all dance with the singer - it was enough in the first steps of the entrada for Neta will ask us to start again. Two thirds of class were good for me. In one little brake I still heard the guitar. When I looked I could see that the singer took the guitar. He played on it and sang. In the dance itself I had a part that confused me because the messy kido wasn't there and I suppose to respond to her. In the start of the tango part the non-clean started to move too much. I had to respond it cause I'm next to her in this part and she moved to my side. Neta asked her few times NOT to do it, but it didn't help. Then the singer asked when does this class ends. He started to be nervous. Neta checked if he will come to the bata class this week. He said he will. Neta asked if anyone remember a part of the caña. Well, only three of us and no one remember. I wasn't sure I got to which part she mean and I was too much into the farruca. Once again just working on a small part with him and he went. He said something about a show. This part became harder. The "ballerina" back to her bad behavior and didn't give me any space. I already said "SPACE!" while dancing, I moved a side... The "ballerina" saw but didn't mind. In a part we need to be all close to each other - I got a fixing that I need to get closer. Too much care about my space. The fat woman was very aside any case and got a fixing as well. We ended a bit after time. This time for a change when I went some girls were still there. And all class we has a visitor - one of the daughters of Neta was there. She had there a thing which I don't know it's name (what a hole in my education). It looks a bit like a scooter, but has a part of it's own to each leg. In the little brakes she drove on it all over the studio. It was pretty cute

Dancing on the sun

I will try to do it shortly. Too hot and I'm too tired. Once again - a class without the guitar player although he suppose to come and practice with us. I hope it will be fine like Neta said today when I asked her before class. She came sick to teach us, where is he? Before me came the daughter. I made the impossible and changed near the beginners. The fat woman and the "smart" one came almost in the last moment. The air conditioners were working both, at least most of time. Still in this heat (more than usual to this area) it hard to feel it. It was like dancing on the sun. We started to practice and one thing we made sharper. I can't remember who asked it, but she asked where is my friend. Neta said that she need to come cause she suppose to bring her something. Not too long after and when we moved on - my friend came. She forgot her skirt and her husband brought her. The thing she brought was the thing she moved off from her skirt. She said it's much better now and she doesn't want to see again this part that used be on her skirt. It's a thing called "papel". It is a kind of fabric which is possible to get only in Spain and make the bata de colas heavier and harder. It suppose to make it easier for the dancers, but it made a real mess to my friend. And dancing. Now I got fixing all the time because of my place. I'm too much on the edge out, too much getting in... My friend and the "smart" one got something similar. In the part of dance with our back to the mirror - as usual it was hard. It was too crowded and again my bata got into the benches over and over again. It was hard - too much confusing and too much takes the "power" of my bata. Still Neta wanted us to go more to the back for it will be easier to the daughter. I don't have space anyway....... Once Neta told while dancing how to fix one more thing. Because of the recorded music - I didn't hear all she said and couldn't figure out. Like it isn't enough to me with the benches. After we finished she told me again. In the part before I go too fast. When we made a practice on the bowing down - I thought I'm getting crazy. If it still didn't happen yet - it will happen now. Once I do it too fast and don't wait to others, when I wait to others I do it too slow... Hell. I'm probably there. The heat is already there, so who will tell me something else? A water brake. All start to sit. So did Neta. It was too hard for all of us this time. Once again a talk about the show. We will probably will get back some of our money that we invested in it. Neta said that she was sure about that much less people will come and made a calculation by that. I guess that with my account in the bank and all the money I took off for this show - it will be great. Once again with our faces to the windows most of dance. It was confusing in some points, but at least I finally had some space to my bata. Once I almost took a chair with me, but accept that... It was like heaven. In the end I said that although the confusing parts - I prefer this way cause it gives some space to my bata. Neta said about the space that the daughter needs. Hey, doesn't she see me? My friend was on my side and said that I'm right. She see all the time that I'm too close. I'm not sure it was useful, but I do appreciate her try. In the time to change - the husband of the fat woman was there in the shadows outside. I wasn't hurry - I don't wanna strip him

Just shoot me!

Hard class. The husband looked again even before his fat woman was "dancing". He went away or was hiding well after this. I still no white shirt. I changed but left with a T shirt. And when I got back - I was putting my vest on. I have no money now for a new shirt again. My mother said that she may give me for a while a shirt that she have, but still didn't give me one to practice with. Between the medium level class and the farruca class - Neta asked me why don't I wear a white shirt. It will make me different and I shouldn't. And no more vests. I don't need it anymore. Yeah, the same vest that I bought for this farruca and made me a role model for one evening. One of the kids said it's too cold in the studio. I said it will be hot in a moment. I was right. The better air conditioner has been shut down. It took some time to get the girls ready to class. I was amazed from the color that my friend was spreading on her finger nails. I don't remember that she has like this before, but it is definitely my style. Later on a short warming with little parts from the farruca. And finish the part we started last week that I do with two more (include the "ballerina"). Do it again and again. And others practice their parts and lots of shouting. It took some time to get silence. And it wasn't the only time to try getting some silence. I guess the end of year freaks out all of us. I can tell it started only recently. The "ballerina" keeps on hiding me. Few times it looked like that she try NOT to, but mostly looked like she don't give a damn. Near the end we started (finally) to work on a short salida to finish our farruca. Few ideas didn't fit any of us. One idea was accepted but the kids said it's weird. Probably when they'll grow up.... After making all - the "ballerina" said that she feels like she goes too much to the side. I said that sometimes I don't see myself in the mirror. She said "exactly!". What's this answer? If she was a bit more a side as she's afraid - I could see myself in the mirror with no problem! In the end of class I wasn't hurry. I was too afraid of the husband to show up, and I had a feeling about some pieces of paper. Neta asked us to fill up some pieces of papers with questions about how was this year and what do we want to next year. It doesn't come every year, but I heard Neta say last week something about it and saw that the medium level class made it this evening. Before we all finished - the fathers of the kidos came in the studio. The father of the messy one came with the little brother and sister of the kido. I went out to change in the ladies room. I didn't get into a cell - I thought it's enough to close the door. When I was with my pants down (and found out that my new flamenco pants needs already a fixing) - the father of the messy kido got in in a storm. I made a try to hide what's needed and got back to the wall. Unlike the husband - he got nervous too and apologized, but damn - I was there because of him, he shouldn't come after me! he went out, and a kid opened a scratch too. What's that? After a class like this - just shoot me! At least end of year is getting really close. I hope to stay alive till it will come

in the heat

One more bata class. Between the class of beginners and our class I catch Neta for a little talk. I took today my bata ftom a fixing and by the way I found out that my usual seam stress knows Neta. The seam stress asked me about her and sent regards. Accept that - I found out that yesterday Neta uploaded to facebook a photo of someone who used to be in the studio long time ago as telling about our end of year show of this year. I asked why does a photo of hers - no connection. Neta said it's more for the showing up and it's a happy photo not only of hers. I said that if people will come accept those who we invited - they can look for her and won't understand why doesn't she on stage with us. Neta said that no one knows her and won't reconize if it's her or not on stage. My friend said that Neta should upload a photo of mine. I'm sure that it was a joke, but when I think of it - it has much more sense. After all - I will be there. My friend and the "smart" one has started a conversation about shirts that fit the batas. I told where did I get my new shirt that I was wearing for the first time - a new shirt that I bought to fit more with colors to my bata. Now my friend who came with a very sarcastic mood had a new thing to say. Why didn't I get a shirt with a bit of cleavage, it looks religious. In a moment I will start to spread bags with kosher food....The warming has started while one of the beginners was still there. And practice a lot. When we've been asked to dance all from start I asked if the guitar player wasn't suppose to come. Neta said that he was, but he couldn't. Never mind - he works on the caña for a month, so he will be ready. I said to my friend quietly that I wonder if WE will be ready. First time we danced all - I felt rusty. I missed too many little things. In the other times - less, but still few little mistakes. Near the end we started to work on the bowing down. Funny how a little thing could confuse all. And I will be a sign to one part of it. And try doing it with the back to the mirror. We still could see ourselfs in the windows, a thing that didn't make us less confuse. And till we did it - I got a breeze of the better air conditioner. In this heat outside and with dancing in batas - it needed. There was the option to dance last time all dance with our backs to the mirror, but it was too much. Last time for tonight - still see ourselfs in the mirror

One more class before the end

First again between the class of the bata. Only three girls in the beginners. I thought to change near them - after all it's only girls and the fat woman isn't there. Just needed to the ladies' room. The fat woman and her husband were near by, so I went again for taking my bata and wear it in a close place after all. Getting back to the studio - the husband still there and the daughter is changing totally outside - no ladies' room or studio. She came with a friend. My friend came on time. Between classes I asked her where have she's been on Sunday. She was in a family party and Neta was suppose to know (although she didn't). A lot of warming. This time the "smart" one was late and took hewr a long time to change. Others got fixed on the dance itself. When we tried it with the places - I got fixed all the time. I'm too much on the edge. My friend got it a bit as well. We got more into the center - we're too much there, go back to the edge (which sometimes were in other words - dance on the wall). We did those circles that I made the example. It worked out well accept not in place again. Got a short practice on the little part after. Went well again. And to practice it with the little part after. The circles went well, after that we all stopped with heads turns. Feels a bit like we're all after too much whiskey. What happened? Oh, the heads, that's too confusing! At least that what the "smart" one said. In one point - I got really fixed that I make the bata "jump" too late. Few times and got it on time. That's in the moment between "whiskey" and the other part. And dance, really dance. Neta asked if to open one more air conditioner. I said "yes". As the only one who answered - no one took me seriously. Later on after a real dance session - Neta said we all look tired and maybe it's the heat. Ok, one more air conditioner. Once we made a try of dancing with backs to the mirror. I was under the watching eye of Neta. Looks like mostly me... Working of the salida - the end of dance and getting out. It didn't take too long till we stopped to talk. Who will be the singer? Neta told us who said "no" abd that our singer will be a recommendation of the guitar player. And the show of Yael Horwitz... The "smart" one said to check someone else. And where is the guitar player? The smart one don't stop to say some stupid things. One of them was that she's in this studio 5-6 years. Hell no! I finish my 6th year and she came in my third. I remember it because of the time I started, I remember what was in the year after and she came to beginners when we did the end of year in the first time where it was last year.... And last year she had some "wise" thing to tell me how do I ruin all. Who the @#$@% is she? I didn't even try to fix her - a bit because it was too stupid thing to say till it don't worth a fixing, accept although I don't like her it doesn't mean that I try to fight. And she said in the who know which time it is - she knows someone who learn photography in her first year. And her family will come for the first time to see her dance, probably because of the place. All this conversation was with bottles of water, three girls on the floor, me and the fat stand while Neta in the front of us on a bench. Ok, few more minutes, all of us are freak out cause we can't anymore. End of class for tonight. After class I saw something weird. We do it every year for our families and friends. It's has this time a kind of publicity to come and see us.... Whet did I miss?

One more end of year party

Almost the end

I got there first again from my class. The guitar player was there, the medium level class were dancing their solea and Neta was standing on a bench to take a video. I almost was putting my stuff on one of the new benched that came up today, but I prefered to wait till the video will over for the water will be closer to me. When it's over - I went out to change. Got back - something looked weird. It took me a while, but it was a practice of dancing without watching yourself. I guess that I was a bit too tierd if I didn't get it from the start. I know this kind of practice - I made it myself many times in this studio before the end of year. In this time - I wasn't really looking - I was worried my hair, my water, wearing the flamenco shoes. When I looked I saw too much mistakes, mostly of the two old ladies. Pitty... The one who made less came to me in the end of their class. It took her some time to say what she wanted and then it was telling me that my new flamenco pants looks really good on me. I thnaked her and got up. I went to the assistant who was very proud in me that I still give answers to her e-mails. I gave her money for few tickets for family and friends. Only few and one is for the one who learned with me in Tuesdays till she said she can't come anymore. Weird, no problem to take money for the tickets and there are tickets, but... The tickets weren't there yet. I gave my share as well. Now there is no way back. In the class itself - my friend didn't come. the other nice one came and made a big try to take her place when we really danced. We has a very short warming this time. The warming was include again in closing the air conditioners. I think I'm about to die before end of year show... Neta said that maybe I should try dancing with my shirt outside pants although it not a part of deal. I did it and think of putting somthing more underneath - a sweatbelt or something. I need to hold my pants from falling. In the start of real dancing I made some stupid mistakes with steps. Neta didn't say anything, but I'm not sure she noticed. Later on she was at my side - I didn't need to say a thing for she will ask to give me some space for all will see me. It didn't help much after - in one point she came behind me to whisper while we all dance that I need to go a bit more left. And in the part I do with the two others - we all need to do it more in the center. And so many times all of us needed to repeat over and over on some little things for we'll do it perfect. After one time we did the whole dnace - Neta said that we don't give enough to the audience to enjoy and wait to the next step. None of us did - not dancer or the guitar player. Near the end - a little change in the way we go. One of my trio (the adult one) started to fix me. Oh great...! And it was including some touching again. Super! I'm not sure when was last time she was washing her hands... And for the end - few more steps. Now I can be happy for mt place - a bit more dancing while others do palmas. I just have to work on legs work. Neta took a video of the new parts. For the camera - I made some mistakes again

Wondering

I just started to worry... I can't be sure about all people that I want to come if they's come to end of year party. My friend from Jerusalem will probably will finally come with her husband. If she's come - I will have two reasons to be happy. I'm waiting for years that she will see me this way and I know that I got better this year. The second reason is that I know how does her husband makes dance photography... If they will come I will have some great photos of mine dancing on stage. I need to be ready that one of their kids won't feel well and won't come. And one other friend can't be sure if she will come because of time changes and I trully want her there as well. One of my aunts wanna come. Last year I wasn't sure if I want to invite and did in invite her in the end. Well, it was a good choice cause I enjoyed her being there. Her happiness of being there and the complements I received from her made me feel good. I know she wants to come again, but wanrned me that it's possible that in the last moment can be a problem. I know that my father and one of my sisters (I have two) won't come for sure. My mum and my middle sister... A whole drama. The video that we'll have will be made by a husband of one of the medium level student. I can't be rely on it. My mum don't know how to make a video and because of it and because of a new niece - she didn't come last year (she was with my niece while my sis came to make a video). Now I want both of them to come - my mum come come again after last year brake and my sis for a video.... My sis still can't really let go her daughter and wants to let my mum to keep my niece again. We had a little fight with it. Now I'm too afraid that in the end I will find myself with no guests, no video and no photos

What a mess with the end...

Well, many changes. We'll have reharsle an evening before the show, a thing we never had before. Still - all the time there are changes. Every year we have before show two hours to practice on stage our dances. This year - we've been told about an hour and a half. Afterwards - when I alread started to invite people - the hour of show has been changed. A half an hour later on. Now an e-mail from the assistant of Neta. One more later on with the show, and one hour earlier with reharsle. I don't know how will I hang on without to crash. And I was talking with one of my friends - one who came last year. In the start she said that she's about to come again for sure, even that it's with payment this time. She said she enjoyed it last year. Now when she heard about the new change with time she said that she might not be able to come in this hour... And I have some other things as well on my mind now. I don't think I can handle it now.......

Turkiz and Argaman

My amazing teacher, Neta Shezaf took a part recently in a show which called Turkiz and Argaman. It was a show which took few belly dancers to dance their style in one part. The other part was made from dancers of different styles who took their style and made it a bit closer to belly dances. So, Neta took Andreu Ilin - the guitar player who comes to our classes and end of the year parties for almost two and a half years. She performe with him since. As far as it was for taking it to belly dances and eastern music - he did not play on his guitar. He took an easter version of guitars. I don't know how does it called in nglish, but in Hebrew it called ud. Sadly, I missed it. But - I have a photo from that show. It's really from the end. All the belly dancers are in this photo, also Neta and Andreu. Well, it isn't hard to know who's Andreu here cause he's the only man in the photo. Neta is the woman who's in the right.

One more class

That's nice to think of it as a class, not as a scary one, although I'm still a bit affraid. I guess that the biggest problem I had yesterday was that I forgot my water again at home.

The class of the medium level was almost private. I saw the end of it. It was including two: the new assistant and a man who started last year. I really don't understand how come that the good guys has no enough self confidence. Oh, in a second thought - the bad ones has no self confidence and makes others feel bad about it, the good guys just talk about it. The man who started last year is really good. Last year I saw how great he became near the end of the year. In the end of the year party of last year - a friend of mine who came puted her eye on him. No, I don't think that she was in this part of life of looking for a new man. She said that this man just dance great. Yesterday I found out that he thinks that he isn't good enough because it takes him a bit slower than he thought to learn it. And he isn't young anymore, so what he learned already is very respecetful. The class that I take has started as a mental help we all gave him.

When the class has really started - it was again almost a private one. Only me and Ilan. We started with a bit listening to music. Then the sisters from Haife arrived. They said that one of them will dance a solea and the other one alegria, but they still didn't choose who of them will do which palo. Neta said that they need to do it now. The more adult said that she'll take the alegria.

We started to practice. We all practice some steps, four of us needed to make some changes, and every time one made the part with the changes and the others made it together after that. Every one of s needed it will be fit to our chosen palos. In this part - I think I pretty made it. Even when we did it like the alegria which needed me a lot of work till it will feel almost natural in my body - Neta said I'm good. When it was me alone with my guajira - I wasn't terrible, but I wasn't clear enough.

At least I wasn't alone in not doing it perfect. The only one who looked like it came easy to him was Ilan, and he's a proffecional and dance for years. I made some mistakes, the younger sister danced like she isn't sure enough, and even the older sister who's usually amazing couldn't do a decent alegria alone. The younger sister in some point has helped her in telling her in arabic where are the points in the alegria that needs attention. The way she did it was funny till Neta and lan tried to tell her this way too....

In theend - we all tried to make the start of our dances. In this part - four of us made mistakes. It all came to little videos for we'll work and improve it till next week. The younger sister for Haife took a video of my practice. I don't have any attention to upload it to here because it was a practice, and a pretty bad one.

One more class tonight. This time - the bata de cola. Near the class of yesterday - the big difficult bata is like a kids' game. And now at least my skirt is fixed again

The class instead

The Jeswish holidays time is almost over, but still there is a bit time. Because if that - the bata class has changed the day this week.

I was the first to come last night. Neta was practicing again for the show in the end of the month. The redhead came. She wasn't even sure if it's possible to get in. Neta was very in the practicing, I didn't was to disturb and had to make some pantomime for she will understand she can get in.

And all girls of the bata came. And also the snobish woman too. Last year we both were in the bata class, this year she didn't wanna although her daughter do it as well. The studio was full, the airconditions are still not working and we were in batas. It was hot...!

And I came a bit "hugh" and not really on the ground. There was an easy step for me which all were practicing and I just found myself look and not sure if to practice or not. The woman who I learn with in the bata and the farruca thought I can't do it and don't practice because of it. She tried to show me quietly how to do it. And here - she said that I should see that I can do it.

In some moves the snobish didn't dare to try, even when all made it. Not because she wasn't on the ground, just didn't wanna try. It was pretty funny in my eyes because she learn more years than I do. And in the last end of the year party I was with her in the group of dancing the bata dance. I heard from a friend that it's possible to see that she learn more time...

And there was a little stop. Today there is a historical moment for Israel. Some were started to talk about talk about politics.

And in the end I heard that in the new show of Neta there is a swich: once it will be with the violin and once with a flute. In the end of this month it will be with the flute while I saw it with the violin  

For this evening

After last week I didn't have any class - this evenig the classes returns. I'm so ecxited from that. I really missed it

This is a photo I took after the end of the year party 2 years ago and made some changes with the computer

So, how was it?

I had the end of the year party yesterday. I guess that it's for the best I won't write all at once.
I took 3 classes this year (second year on a row) and had 3 different dances in our show. Where I learn - every year we make a party in the end which includes a show that the students makes for the families and friens. As far as we are not proffecional dancers, it's for for close people who we don't won't to disturb - we pay for the rent of the place, bring some food and drinks, and our guests don't have to pay a thing to see us. I'm not sure I have photos from the performing itself. From my family not all could come, a friend of mine that her husband takes wonderful photos of dance couldn't come nigther. Two other friends of mine came, and I think it was mostly videos. Last year we paid more money for a profecional video. This year - something like half the girld didn't want to pay more for that. From my family I could ask for a video or photos this year. I wanted photos, but I prefered to have  a video to remember all steps and music even years from now.
This year I started to learn to dance with bata de cola, which was the middle dance I was on stage. We all came early for last reahrsals. On the rehearsal I was good most of time. On the first dance - tango de malaga - I had to dance near someone I hate. I already learned with her before to dance Sevillanas. Already than she had to say her words of "wisdom" and gave me a good reason to stay far away from her. This year she gave me some other reasons which showed how jealous and crazy she is. In the bowl - the girls needed to notice to my sign. On the classes they didn't notice most of times and puted the blame on me. Another girl wanted to take from me the sign making. I think it's mostly because she's a control freak. This time on reahrsal the teacher saw herself I'm the right one. I finished the bowl and some girls stayed standing, inclueds the @#%! near me.   The teacher finally saw it too and told the @#%! to look - here I finished and she do nothing. On the show it wasn't much better. Some did notice my sign, while she and some others didn't do a thing. 
The bata de cola - palo of guajira - was a second one for me. We were 6 girls in the end of the year. The stage was small, so we did it in two groups of three girls. We almost were 7, but the jealous one was too affraid and didn't want to make it in the show. Never mind, if she were - she couldn't do it better than me, but it was with a skirt she stole from me in the start of the year. I asked esspecially to be in the first group - just to see that I made it and it's behind me. I was affraid too, but I didn't want to give up. on the reahrsal it was a bit messy, but could be worse.
Than was the thid dance for me. On the show - the guitarist was playing a part without any dance, but for me the next step was to take my last part in the show - right after that. A beatiful but very difficult solea. We did this one 2-3 times on the reahrsal. Once was good, other time was terrible. My teacher liked it. She said something like "bad reahrsal - good show".
After I finished my reahrsals - I went out a bit. I saw that one of my friends already came and I wanted to talk with her. Few minutes before the show: another girl from the tango de malaga had to say something about my dress. Another one (the control freak) took some photos. I'm not sure if I can and should upload the 2 with me. My teacher tried to make us a bit more relax. And than she asked me to put the bata de cola on my dress instead of changing all clothes - just to make it faster.I accepted, but.... Although I have a lot of respect for  her and I love her - no one is perfect and every human makes some mistakes. That was a big mistake....