Wondering

I just started to worry... I can't be sure about all people that I want to come if they's come to end of year party. My friend from Jerusalem will probably will finally come with her husband. If she's come - I will have two reasons to be happy. I'm waiting for years that she will see me this way and I know that I got better this year. The second reason is that I know how does her husband makes dance photography... If they will come I will have some great photos of mine dancing on stage. I need to be ready that one of their kids won't feel well and won't come. And one other friend can't be sure if she will come because of time changes and I trully want her there as well. One of my aunts wanna come. Last year I wasn't sure if I want to invite and did in invite her in the end. Well, it was a good choice cause I enjoyed her being there. Her happiness of being there and the complements I received from her made me feel good. I know she wants to come again, but wanrned me that it's possible that in the last moment can be a problem. I know that my father and one of my sisters (I have two) won't come for sure. My mum and my middle sister... A whole drama. The video that we'll have will be made by a husband of one of the medium level student. I can't be rely on it. My mum don't know how to make a video and because of it and because of a new niece - she didn't come last year (she was with my niece while my sis came to make a video). Now I want both of them to come - my mum come come again after last year brake and my sis for a video.... My sis still can't really let go her daughter and wants to let my mum to keep my niece again. We had a little fight with it. Now I'm too afraid that in the end I will find myself with no guests, no video and no photos